you have always been afraid of making mistakes; everytime you saw something that scared you, you run away from it. you escaped everytime you had to face your fears, refusing to solve what tortures you. you have been petrified everytime you felt too much, fleeing to avoid the coming rejection.
you decided not to look back anymore but... sometimes you have to look back and fight with what you have been through.
don't let your past to own your life.