Life sometimes is tricky, bitchy and... an amount of adjectives that are so far from fine.
I used to think that everything is in our hands, that we can change what we have done, that everything can be fixed. But at this point of my life, I realized that I was so wrong. Every action have a consequence, and sometimes those consequences cannot be fixed. We have to accept them, even if we do not want it. Maybe you cry, maybe you laugh... but at the end of the day... when you are screwed up, you shout.
It's agony, it's pain, it's that feeling inside, when you cannot change something.